Saturday, December 26, 2009

So No SSDI For the German Boy

Got my letter of denial a week ago and I can appeal.

A friend of mine also said that I should have my local Congressman do an inquiry and we're going to do that as well.

This just gets "better and better", doesn't it?

No job, only a small pension and facing bankruptcy next month.

While I'm at it, I may as well tell you the rest.

I had D admit me to Ridgeview Institute for suicidal ideations and regulations of my meds which I had been cutting back on to save money. I spent 4 nights there and got out the 23rd.

No, I didn't do Christmas with the family. I stayed home and played my guitar. Even though they they upped my meds, I'm still pretty much an emotional train wreck and I wasn't going to "snow" on anyone's Christmas Parade. The family understands how things are with me, but my little grandson Julian doesn't.

Don't bother laying a "guilt trip" on me or telling me that I was "depriving" him of his "Opa", I already KNOW all that shit.

Next plan is the VA, (so that I can at least get free medical care since I'm a Viet Nam vet) then, if the SSDI STILL isn't approved, I think that D and I had better split up. She doesn't want this and neither do I, but I cannot see this going on and on while we get further and further "in the hole". See, D has a car payment, and medical expenses as well as paying the rent here, and even though I've cut back on just about everything I can so as not to be a burden, she's just barely making it herself.

Yes, I love her! Always did and always will, but this isn't working and I just think it will be better for me to find a small room somewhere and at least some part-time work.

She's 61, looks 51 and is very pretty. She doesn't need a "Sad Sack" like me who can't seem to remember where he puts things 2 minutes later, and is pretty much a train wreck.

So keep your fingers crossed that the SSDI goes through this time, because, much as I hate to say it, money is our major problem, and with my SSDI all will be well and Bill will be a happy (though slightly crazy) boy.

Here's a couple of my favorites (also 2 favorite movies of mine)

You may need to turn the volume on this one, which I consider one of the first rap songs. (Square dance music calling being another).



Please remember to click to feed and watch for another Shelter Challenge.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Just So Y'all Know I'm Not TOTALLY Grumpy....

Click on the title above for a message from my favorite redhead, Becks. I chose the country version, but there are a few others.

Here's one with Becks and her mother Sylvia who has Alzheimer's.

Cute, huh? You'll need to copy and paste the below link to see those two cuttin' a rug!

Thanks, Becky and that's a very handsome picture of your Bill "Der Erste Bill" ("the first Bill") from Scotland!

DAB ("the OTHER Bill")

Get The Hankies Out!

From Luke and Helga in Australia.

The video says it all:

The Animal Rescue Site

Happy Holidays from Bill and Dondra

Wednesday, December 23, 2009


Miss me?

I'm baaaa-aaaaack!

Read by clicking the TITLE line above:

And y'all prolly need to listen to this replay of one of my favorite all-time SONGS!

I spent a little time on "The Green Mile", but I'm back for the holidays, so here's THIS!


It's okay to close your little eyes and rock back and forth, if y'all wanna.....

Thanks and don't forget the four-footers!

The Animal Rescue Site

For the animals always


Sunday, December 13, 2009

I Don't Do Well In Groups Anymore

D asked me to accompany her to our Methodist church's Christmas dinner (I am not yet a member there, being that I was raised Catholic), but I couldn't handle it.

I did the best I could.

Smiled and said hello, but other than eating and smiling at the kids who enjoyed their gifts, I just could not do it.

Was it the fact that D and I cannot spend a Christmas with friends and family back home in Germany this year?

Heretofore, I have always been able to make a trip home to Rothenburg at this time of year, and this time, as I was married, I would not have had to go by myself!

Was it the fact that Betty couldn't be there with her Wayne?

The Dementia? I used to be able to speak in front of large crowds and felt comfortable talking to them.

Hell, I don't know.

All I know is that the tears spilled out, but I kept them at eyelid level.

Now I am facing a family Christmas on the 19th, and I would give anything not to have to go, but D is hitting me over the head with the fact that Julian (my grandson) has never spent a Christmas with his "Opa" (German word for "grandfather") due to my son's divorce.

So I guess I better "suck it up", huh?

My good friend Luke in Australia sent me this, and I am sorry I cannot click you to YouTube, but you have GOT to see this and recognize the colors on their jerseys.

Everyone who knows me, knows I am a cyclist and this is just the most beautiful thing I have ever seen on a bike!

Bert, (my long-haired domestic cat) is looking at me right now, and seems to remind me that there are so many other kitties and doggies that need a home. It's cold out here in West Georgia right now, and so many of them are left on the side of the road or at dumpsters, and I talk to Bert about them.

Please remember this if nothing else: WE domesticated THEM and that makes us responsible.

If you just cannot adopt, then please buy a bag of dog or cat food, take some old towels, old stuffed animal dolls (Yes! They love those, too!) and take them to your local shelter/Humane Society

Just do something, please?

The Animal Rescue Site

Thank you!


Saturday, December 12, 2009

Podcast Update And Other Stuff

I am having some issues with volume on my microphone, so please stand by.

I have a bunch of stuff written which I want to share with you, but we may be going to another blog adress very soon.

google, as y'all know, has taken away the moneys meant for AD Research and Paulding Humane Society.

I am being told it's because of my WARNING that the content here is only meant for adults, but I think that's a bunch of BULLSHIT!

NO ONE advised me that I needed not to include advertisers for y'all to click on!


But I did get a response on the google forum and she told me all was okay. Y'all saw that, right?

Then I got another response telling me it wasn't okay!


This was to be my Christmas Present (small though it may have been) to Alzheimer's Research and the Unwanted Pets!!!!!

God, I'm wore out. Totally.

Please click to feed 'em!

So many of them get "turned in" daily, and so many of them have an "expiration date"!

The Animal Rescue Site



Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Suzette Sent This......

Watch it closely the first time......

Then watch it closely again.

They're cold, hungry and alone

The Animal Rescue Site

Jesus Christ, google.

Jesus Christ.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Big Problem

I have had my ad sense account disabled. These are the ads which are revenue-generating and which last Wendesday came to the following amount:

At that point I put through a request for payment of $100.00 - $50.00 of which was to go to Alzheimer's Research amd $50.00 to Paulding Humane Society.

Yesterday I received the following notification from google:


Google AdSense to me
show details Dec 4 (2 days ago)


While going through our records recently, we found that your AdSense
account has posed a significant risk to our AdWords advertisers. Since
keeping your account in our publisher network may financially damage our
advertisers in the future, we've decided to disable your account.

Please understand that we consider this a necessary step to protect the
interests of both our advertisers and our other AdSense publishers. We
realize the inconvenience this may cause you, and we thank you in advance
for your understanding and cooperation.

If you have any questions about your account or the actions we've taken,
please do not reply to this email. You can find more information by


The reason they sent this is because the very next night that $101.45 jumped to over $127.00 and I have no idea why this happened. Google thinks this was done deliberately by someone (how else to explain the sudden jump in revenue?).

I have appealed this, but don't expect them to relent.

All I can do is ask them to track back the IP address of where all these clicks originated and come to the conclusion that I did not knowingly deceive them.

The reason I write about this NOW is to explain that I do NOT know how this happened. Just that it did and because it is all a moot pont now.

I even wrote google the night before, asked them to have a look at the site to makre sure there were no problems and T received the following e-mail from someone called Rose:

Google Help to me
show details Nov 29 (7 days ago)

SwtRose has posted an answer to the question "I need someone to look at my blog please":

Bill, you are fine! By the way, I did click. ;-)
- Hide quoted text -

The money will be paid as promised. It won't come from google, but it WILL be paid, because I NEVER go back on a promise.



Thursday, December 3, 2009

"You Are NOT Alone!"

And if, like me, you have "trouble" with the holidays, you don't have to be alone, you can be with me!

Virtually, that is. The Internet. A private chat, just us. Lotsa jabberin'. Come on in and "set" a spell.

What I'd like to do is create a temporary chat room for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day for those of us who get the blues at Christmas.

See, I'm one of those people too, and you'd be helping me by giving me something to do and somebody to do it with! (minds outta the gutter chirrun!:))

A lot of what could happen depends on y'all wanting to do this and how MANY of you want to do this. It wouldn't be a voice chat, unless y'all want it to be, so it would be just us, but that too is open to discussion and change.

I just need for y'all to leave me a yea or nay in the comments, because there's no use me sitting here waiting for someone to come online when I could be working on something else.

We'll set up a time via a vote from y'all when we'll best be available, and we can just jabber our little butts off as long as you want.

How does 9pm - 12 am Christmas Eve and Christmas Day sound? We can chat on google talk. Send me an e-mail address to and I'll send you an invite.

Again. If this doesn't work for any of you, tell me, okay?

I told y'all I wasn't gonna beat you upside the head with Christmas music, but I didn't say anything about not celebrating the Winter Solstice.

This one is on one of my Wyndham Hill Winter Solstice cd's.

It's called Flute Sonata in E minor, 3rd Movement, and it was written for flute and harpsichord by Georg Frideric Handel in the 1700's although some folks say its origin is dubious and some have even attributed the work to one of the Bach boys. They weren't homies, but they were contemporaries.

Be that as it may, it's a wonderful way to spend a winter evening wrapped up in a throw in front of a fireplace, or just pretending you're doin' that while leaned back in your La-Z-Boy or lying on the sofa with a cuppa hot tea or coffee nearby!

The Animal Rescue Site

Please also remember to take a bag of food, some old towels, newspapers, etc. to your local shelter if you can.

Yes, I know it's gonna be hard to tear yourself away from all those little ones, but you can do it. (If you can't, well then, congratulations on finding yourself a new little friend!)



Sometimes, Someone ELSE Can Say It Better

Such as this guy:

That was an excerpt from a DVD/Book he wrote, but pretty much puts it all into perspective, as far as I'm concerned.

What he is telling us is what I would like to say as well: "I'm still intellectually "sound", so as long as I have that "soundness of mind", even though it frustrates me, wait and let me come up with the word I can't remember. If I can't, I'll ask you for help."


This doesn't happen very often, but recently I linked you to a site which purported to explain the difference between "dementia" and "Alzheimer's Disease".

My counsellor, Suzette read that link, decided there were some things written there which weren't all together factual, and sends us the following clarification. In retrospect, had I not been so all-fired anxious to get away from the bright screen because of the eye infection (much improved, BTW), I should have sent it to her first to make sure it was accurate.

Here then, is what Suzette wants us to know:

"Dementia is a very broad “umbrella” term. If someone gets a diagnosis of dementia, it just means they have a loss of cognitive functioning, in at least 2 of these categories: memory, language, visual/spatial function, or judgment/reasoning—severe enough to interfere with daily life. (So that diagnosis doesn’t really tell you any more than what was probably already known!)

A doctor who specializes in dementia will investigate the person’s symptoms to give a more specific diagnosis naming the CAUSE of the dementia. Some causes of dementia are treatable or reversible, like drug interactions, infections, thyroid problems, depression, or vitamin deficiencies, and the onset can be sudden—it doesn’t have to be gradual, as the article implied.

Other causes of dementia, like AD, Lewy Body dementia, and frontal-temporal dementia, are irreversible, and in most cases the onset IS gradual. (Alzheimer’s accounts for about 70% of ALL cases/causes of dementia.)

So if a person says, “my mom doesn’t have Alzheimer’s, she just has a little bit of dementia”, the mom either has one of the causes of dementia that can be treated, or she is in the early stages of one of the other dementias--and the likeliest of these is AD."

Thank you, Suzette.

Still in the process of finalizing everything for the podcast, so "stay tuned" (HA!) to this blog for an official launch date and time.

You may remember in a blog from a few days ago, I mentioned that I hoped two of my favorite charities would receive a financial Christmas gift this month?

It is my pleasure to tell you, that this happened Tuesday night, and as soon as "Santa" sends the check, two PayPal donations will be made: One to the Georgia Chapter of the Alzheimer's Association and one to Paulding Humane Society!

More to come about this on the podcast.

I noticed that PHS has crept to #13 in the state's standings of "The Shelter Challenge".

We have been there before (matter of fact, I think we've been at #10), and with only 17 days remaining there's not much time, but I have to hope that the "Ghost of Christmas Present" will provide us with a sudden "surge" of votes to bring us to where we need to be.

Here's our "poster pet" Murphy reminding us that somewhere out there right now is a cold, wet and hungry doggie or kitty, needing some human love.

The Animal Rescue Site



Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Podcast Update

It took a little longer than expected, but we're very close to an "air-date" of what (for now) I am calling "Where To, Bud? - The Podcast".

What I have done thus far:

1. Narrowed down the choice of servers (3) using the following criteria:

a) Cost

b) Ease of Operation (for me)

c) Amount of Bandwidth

Cheap is better than Free in that I get more time

Free is better than cheap, since I don't have to worry about a subscription fee.

The easier this podcast will be to operate, the free-er I will be to talk to you. Since it won't be "live", I will have plenty of time to edit and tweak, so what comes out on the other end hopefully will be informative as well as entertaining.

I plan to draw on my 15 years as a broadcaster/talk-show host to make it as professional a production as I can. By that, I mean I'm not going to sit here and make jibber-jabber "small-talk". The show will have been prepared and edited before-hand, but will be presented in such a way as to seem relaxed and spontaneous.

By "spontaneous", I mean I am not going to limit myself to a script if something "pops" into my head that I didn't consider before.

"Bandwidth" simply means the amount of "time" provided per month for the podcast itself. For example "free" is 100 minutes of audio and 60 minutes of video on one server.

It also is not my intent to simply "regurgitate" what I write on the blog, but to complement it.

One can read the blog at one's leisure, listen to the podcast the same way or do one or the other. Or both.

What I will not do on the podcast is "rant and/or rave". I have been doing less of that in the blog as well.

Information, the so-called "talking points" and maybe some appropriate music. If deemed appropriate, perhaps the mention of my pet-project (so to speak): animal welfare.

So that's where we are.

Technically (except for choosing the server) we're ready. My microphone is the same one I used in the studio singing, so the sound should be very good from here. (How it ends up on your end will depend on your speakers. Luckily audio for computers has come a long way so y'all should be okay there)

19 more days...... please help!

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