Friday, November 28, 2008
The Essential Truth Of What Is And What Can Never Be
So often one hears of a person who loses his sight, but gains strength in another one of his or her senses: smell or hearing for instance. Is that always the case, or does it depend upon the person and his/her ability or desire to make the remaining senses stonger? This is a rhetorical question, (unless one of my readers knows the answer, of course).
And if it is the case then what happens with other debilitating diseases? Mine, for instance? If the plaque, the tangles, and the shrinkage start to get worse, do I have another ability to "to take up the slack", as it were?
No, I do not, because AD affects the whole brain. Take another "tour of the brain" on www.alz.org and look at all 16 slides, if you care. Note the "normal" brain and the brain of "advanced Alzheimer's". That is one ugly-looking thing isn't it?
So what's left?
What's left is to keep going, keep working, keep hoping and take each day as it comes, hard as that may be for me sometimes. (I know what I'm supposed to do, it's the actual doing it, that's difficult.)
I have noticed a different "attitude" in myself as I relate to my patients - the ones who are non-emergent, I mean. The ones with the asthma, or COPD or chest pain.
I "stay with them" a bit longer now. I smile more at them (I smile anyway, but now in a more "genuine" way and not in a "well how are we feeling today" kinda way, if you know what I mean.) I draw them out in conversations, ask them where they're from originally, how they like it in Georgia if they're from elsewhere. Ask them if they have a stressful job, that kind of thing.
I think it's because I crave their closeness. Anyone's closeness - Tom's on the phone for instance. Y'all on this blog. Julian when I am with him. Bert (my cat) when he's on the bed with me.
Yep, it's been an interesting journey so far.
Till next time, thank you and enjoy the song and the scenes. May it have special meaning for you.