Friday, June 26, 2009

What I Miss

1. I miss the "old" me. The guy who'd do or say something absurd just to see who's paying attention. A "play on words", if you will.

Case in point: A couple of weekends ago, the inlaws and D & I went out to eat at a very nice seafood restaurant. Very nice, but very small, and very popular. So much so, that if there's a lot of people eating at the same time, the three air conditioners cannot handle keeping everyone comfortable, so there's a lot of "menu-in-the-face-waving" going on, and, in my case, a lot of sweating.

My niece: "Hot, isn't it, Bill?"

Bill: "It's not the heat, it's the humanity!" (that's called a malapropism, by the way - Yogi Berra is really good at those!)

Laughter all around.

But see, that was the first time in a very long time, that I've felt that loose!

2. I don't smile that much anymore. On the contrary, sometimes it's all I can do to keep from crying, and if you were close, you'd wonder at those sudden "tune-outs" of mine, when I seem to be staring at nothing (as related to me by my wife).

3. I used to love to make eye-contact with my conversation-partners, but now I'm so afraid of stumbling over (or not knowing) a word, that I look down as I speak and bite my lips a lot in concentration.

4. I miss my PATIENTS! Oh, GOD, I miss them so much! Making them feel better, interacting with them, and teaching them how to breathe and deal with their COPD. I loved meeting them in the super-market and just standing there speaking with them, and asking how they're getting along. Many times I'd forget their names, but they never forgot me,and we used to joke that if they'd lie down flat (wherever we might happen to meet), I'd know who they were!

This effing disease has taken so much away from me!

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Anonymous said...

Hi Bill, ahhh Dylan, another great one.

With the loss of one the greatest entertainers of all time, thought you would like this.

It made me smile, I hope it makes you smile.

The effing disease can't take away our smiles, and I bet you have a great one.


Bill Craig said...

Hey Becky!

Wow! Never heard him do that one before! What a great rendition, but you know what?

It made my eyes wet to listen and watch, and then I read some of the comments and saw that I wasn't the only one who had such a reaction.

About MY smile?

Well that picture at the beginning of the blog is about the best I coud manage at the time!

Thanks for sending me the clip, Becky, for following the blog, and for caring!